Class seperated so unevenly...
all the monkeys are in the A1 class, which causes soo much noise and FUN!!!!
i Love the fun..
anyway..there are problems that i'm scared to touch..or even talk about it..
i'm trying my best to make it positive..but i dunno why..i cant..
1st problem..my attitude..i'm scared that i cant manage my maths..which i'm lazy and i dont like maths..
2nd problem is i really really really really really really really really really really dont wan to giv anymore burden to my parents. From the day i start to work when i was 15, i already understand that money is very hard to earn. I also know that my parents are having a real hard time to earn alot of money to grow up their 3children(my brother, sister and me). i really really really really dont wan to depend on them anymore..especially in money matter. I had seen before how my parents quarrel because of money matter. They work so so hard until they got sick, hurt, and even depressed.
I knew how they feel actually. i fell so bad that i couldn't help out..not even once..
I felt my self so hopeless..so useless..I call myself Bastard for that.
In KL, i dont really spend money because..every cent that i'm spending is the effort from my parents..
even for food..i would have to think and think.."should i eat?? should i buy this??do i need that file or sumthing???do i really need all that books???"
Today, 7th april 2010..12.23a.m
i cried in front of my laptop,
having peer pressure about those things,
and writing this Blog..
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
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